Chapter 514: 467 If you have only one breath left, please live well and then watch me carefully! _3
"Your mother was born into a family of privilege, a noble by birth, and her parents educated her to become a top socialite, perhaps she reaped many benefits from such a life, so she demanded the same from you."
"..."
"She wanted you to see Wen Nian as a goal, to climb to a high position. But she didn’t realize that you saw Wen Nian as a goal because he truly was the one you loved in your heart."
Song Lili’s words struck right at Song Xiangqiao’s heart.
Because of this, her tears flowed uncontrollably.
"In your diary, I saw a Song Xiangqiao who knew how to appreciate and praise from a young age, a Song Xiangqiao who was devoted and passionate, a Song Xiangqiao who had great ambitions and was undaunted by difficulties."
Song Lili smiled again,
"From your diary, I reflected harshly on myself... The man you regarded as out of your reach has always been by my side, but I took his goodness for granted. It’s because I didn’t strive, I wasn’t ambitious, and just coveted his goodness that made you feel unbalanced."
"Yes, you just don’t strive, you’re not ambitious... yet Brother Wen Nian just happens to like you... sob sob..."
Song Lili pursed her lips and took a long breath,
"I haven’t read the latter part of your diary. I don’t need to."
"..."
"Because no matter how hard you worked, how pure you were in your youth, no matter how full of hope and expectations you were, jealousy clouded your heart."
"..."
"It was you who let jealousy cloud your heart, Song Xiangqiao, and for that you can’t blame anyone else."
Song Xiangqiao looked at her steadily, as the EKG beside her beeped increasingly rapidly.
"Perhaps at the beginning, in order to win Wen Nian, you really did try, you made sacrifices, but what you did later, was murder, was entrapment, was threatening, was criminal."
"..."
"It was you who made the wrong choices, one misstep leading to another."
"It’s you who refuse to see my change, to acknowledge that the effort I have made has surpassed you by far!"
"It’s also you who, for self-protection, married Zhuo Ting, to gain power and become someone else’s pawn."
"You ask me why I suddenly changed? Song Xiangqiao, for someone as smart as you, how can you ask such a foolish question?"
Song Lili furrowed her brows.
Song Xiangqiao looked at her...
"You just have to look at Wen Nian and you already like him incredibly much, whereas I grew up with Wen Nian, we practically lived together. After your mother and you took away my family, I only had Wen Nian left. You ask me why I suddenly changed? He stands so high, and I’m just like an insignificant weed, so unnoticeable. I wanted to reach him, I wanted to stand at that height, to be by his side!"
"It’s not just you who have invested feelings, efforts, and everything else. I love him, I’ve even given my own life."
"..."
Song Xiangqiao blinked, a little stunned, a little numb.
Song Lili’s words—why couldn’t she understand a bit of them?
Song Lili stood up,
"Nothing else, I’m going back first, I hope you can live well, even if it’s just a breath left, and then watch me carefully, properly."
"..."
Song Lili turned and walked swiftly out of the sickroom as if running away from something...
As she stepped out the door, she saw Wen Nian standing at the entrance.
The tears about to form in Song Lili’s eyes fell.
Wen Nian looked at her, full of heartache...
"Why are you here?"
Song Lili sniffled and asked.
The tear that rolled out of her eyes was quite neat and didn’t leave a trace on her face.
"I was still worried about you coming over alone, and the driver said you wouldn’t let him follow, so I thought I’d feel more assured coming over myself."
"...I’m sorry, for making you worry."
Song Lili said somewhat uncomfortably, "When did you get here?"
"I’ve been standing here for a while."
"..."
"I didn’t mean to eavesdrop, really!"
Wen Nian quickly raised both hands to show his innocence.
Song Lili gave him a glance.
Wen Nian hurriedly took hold of her, "Lili, I heard what you said, but I don’t understand... Why did you cry? Were you moved by your own words?"
Song Lili glared at him again.
She refused to speak, and Wen Nian kept pestering her from behind.
Finding it impossible to ignore him any longer, Song Lili had to stop,
"She really is a terrifying and formidable rival in love."